Wednesday, May 1, 2013

Nearly Gone

1 Mei 2013 :: Rabu

dengan rasminya rumah aku di Pasir Gudang dijual. 
Rumah aku membesar dari kecil sampai umur 21, tinggal di situ, kenal dan belajar erti hidup di situ, sekarang dengan rasminya bukan tempat aku lagi. Memang kalau nak ikutkan pun, aku dah pindah ke Kelantan sejak 2,3 tahun lepas lagi.. Tapi selagi rumah tu tak dijual, kadang- kadang aku dan keluarga aku masih ke sana, melawat abang aku yang tinggal kat sana.

Memang hati terasa sayu.... even, minggu lepas pun, aku ada balik kampung. Dari Penang, sampai Kelantan hari jumaat, esoknya sabtu bergerak dengan mama dan abah ke Johor, dan Ahad malamnya aku gerak balik ke Penang. Jauh- jauh datang dari utara, ke pantai timur dan kemudian ke selatan, memang semata- mata untuk tidur satu malam kali terakhir dekat rumah yang penuh kenangan.

Malam tu, sambil baring mengadap ceiling atas, sambil termenung, while tears on my eyes, I realized how time flies so fast.. how everything had changed.. how now I had grew up.. and I looked at myself for what I had became... not only things changed, but also myself had changed. then I smiled to myself and wiped away the tears, and then I came to a conclusion that, even after so many things had happened, how my life had moved from one place to another, yet.. no matter what, deep down inside, the "girl" inside of me is the same, and will always be there... and I remembered what my dad once told me, when I was having a rough time, he said, "don't worry my dear... no matter what happen, always be yourself, don't ever change it..".  then I smiled again, Thanks Allah, for not letting me to lose myself again...

I may lose the house, I may lose people, well, that's how the life goes on, everything is temporary... It somehow has to end somewhere.. and at the end of the day, only memories left behind.. but I'm grateful, at least I don't lose myself to be drowned by the feeling of losing... I'm wide awake now, and I couldn't wait for the next plan of Allah for my life!  :)

Saturday, April 20, 2013

Reclaim Our Hearts

It is easy to say that we love Allah swt.
It is easy to say that there is nothing else in our hearts, except Allah.
Yes, it is easy to say on the tongue but not with the heart.

There's a direct relation between the heart (your love) and the mind (your thought)..
your thought is going to be the reflection of what you love the most..
what's consume in your heart, consuming your mind too..

Here  are some questions to ask ourselves, in way to measure our hearts.

What do we really LOVE the most?

what are we AFRAID of?

What are we FEAR the most?

what do we THINK about the most?




what it's RELATED TO?

does it's related to Allah?

Does it?
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We'll find out that most of the time, it is not about Allah s.w.t. But it is all about His gifts...


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Be honest to admit that, sometimes we were praying to Allah, while actually our minds thinking about something else, not Allah.. and our hearts worrying about else matters and not to Allah...

Ask ourselves again, what is it that make us MOST ANGRY?

what is it that makes us MOST SAD?


.....because fear is the indicator of ULTIMATE LOVE.

Is it ALLAH, to whom we feared to most???

More questions,

What are the things that we MOST AFRAID OF LOSING IT?

what's the things that KEEP US UP ALL NIGHT long until we cannot sleep?

what was THE LAST THING WE THINK ABOUT before we fall asleep?


What are the answers to all those questions?

What was it?

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we will figure out that most of the answers to all the questions, has nothing to do with Allah...

typically the answers are the gifts...

the gifts- the money, the job, the wealth, the honor, the power, the status, the spouse, the children, the family, the good health, the body, the appearance and everything little things in this life...

All the blessings in this life are the gifts from Allah...
when Allah give us gifts- we should appreciate it, and we should show gratitude for it..
However, it seems like we have love the gifts more than the Giver...

how come we LOVE the GIFTS more than the GIVER?
how come we became DEPENDENT to the GIFTS but not to the GIVER?

The gifts-—that should have remained in our hands—takes over our heart.

We have took all the gifts and put that in the place of our heart, where it is supposed to be a place for Allah swt..

The Life, The Gift or The Giver? We make the choice.


I'm writing based on the speeches by this inspirational person, Yasmin Mogahed. This video is so worth watching.

Wednesday, March 20, 2013

Love Relationship Cycle

Assalamualaikum w.b.t.

Hye, well to be honest, I am so not the one who should talk about love relationship, since I'm not into it. Truthfully, as what I understand about LOVE, the feeling shared between a women and a man, it is a gift from Allah. Well, when Allah give you something, there's must be a reason for you to understand and a lesson to be learned. I won't say much about this, since I had wrote about love on my previous post : Cinta, Rumahtangga dan Syurga

But here I wanna share an article from facebook's wall post that caught my attention. A simple and well written about the love relationship cycle. It's kinda true I guess. hehe.. However, in my opinion, if the relationship is for the sake of Allah, InsyaAllah, He will help us to keep the relationship untill jannah. 

As long as we well take care of our relationship with Allah, then Allah will take care the rest of other relationships, InsyaAllah...  



During a seminar, a woman asked," How do I know if I am with the right person?"

The author then noticed that there was a large man sitting next to her so he said, "It depends. Is that your partner?" In all seriousness, she answered "How do you know?" Let me answer this question because the chances are good that it's weighing on your mind replied the author.

Here's the answer.

Every relationship has a cycle… In the beginning; you fall in love with your partner. You anticipate their calls, want their touch, and like their idiosyncrasies. Falling in love wasn't hard. In fact, it was a completely natural and spontaneous experience. You didn't have to DO anything. That's why it's called "falling" in love.

People in love sometimes say, "I was swept of my feet."Picture the expression. It implies that you were just standing there; doing nothing, and then something happened TO YOU.

Falling in love is a passive and spontaneous experience. But after a few months or years of being together, the euphoria of love fades. It's a natural cycle of EVERY relationship.

Slowly but surely, phone calls become a bother (if they come at all), touch is not always welcome (when it happens), and your spouse's idiosyncrasies, instead of being cute, drive you nuts. The symptoms of this stage vary with every relationship; you will notice a dramatic difference between the initial stage when you were in love and a much duller or even angry subsequent stage.

At this point, you and/or your partner might start asking, "Am I with the right person?" And as you reflect on the euphoria of the love you once had, you may begin to desire that experience with someone else. This is when relationships breakdown.

The key to succeeding in a relationship is not finding the right person; it's learning to love the person you found.

People blame their partners for their unhappiness and look outside for fulfillment. Extramarital fulfillment comes in all shapes and sizes.

Infidelity is the most common. But sometimes people turn to work, a hobby, friendship, excessive TV, or abusive substances. But the answer to this dilemma does NOT lie outside your relationship. It lies within it.

I'm not saying that you couldn't fall in love with someone else. You could. And TEMPORARILY you'd feel better. But you'd be in the same situation a few years later.

Because (listen carefully to this):

The key to succeeding in a Relationship is not finding the right person; it's learning to love the Person you found.

SUSTAINING love is not a passive or spontaneous experience. You have to work on it day in and day out. It takes time, effort, and energy. And most importantly, it demands WISDOM. You have to know WHAT TO DO to make it work. Make no mistake about it.

Love is NOT a mystery. There are specific things you can do (with or without your partner), Just as there are physical laws Of the universe (such as gravity), there are also laws for relationships. If you know how to apply these laws, the results are predictable.

Love is therefore a "decision". Not just a feeling.

Remember this always: God determines who walks into your life. It is up to you to decide who you let walk away, who you let stay, and who you refuse to let GO.


Thursday, March 14, 2013

The Best Feeling is Grateful

Do you know what could have make you feel so alive and grateful?

When you realized even after so many sins you've committed,
but Allah couldn't stop give you blessings,
again and again..

It's feel like He couldn't just let you go for whatever reasons.

...and I, couldn't hope for more than His blessings...

Thank you Allah..



Waking up in the morning with this feeling everyday will definitely help me get through the hectic day with faith and a smile along the way...

Tuesday, March 12, 2013


Lokasi: Desaru - Tanjung Balau, Johor.

Gambar-gambar nih aku ambil masa di Johor bulan Januari lepas. Mostly semua aku ada post dalam instagram aku. So here, just sharing a few pictures of it, enjoy it! :). tiada dlsr, hanya guna phone yang 8mp sahaje..