aja aja fighting ya!

i just came back from mid night movie with my gurlfriends.. aja,aja,ayu.
there were four of us. hanging out to the queensbay mall.
it was unplanned plan.

today was kinda suck for ajar shar and her roommate, hajar. (same name).
aja shar was having bad stomach-ache since yesterday. So it has been 2 days. This afternoon she went to meet the doctor. and it was horrifying when the doctor suspected she was having intestine, usus problem or batu karang. she was suspended for a while in the Pusat Kesihatan USM ward. she even got injection twice. Luckily after a few hours, the doctor let her go back hostel as her condition getting better.

while the second hajar, never thought another bad thing was waiting for her.
supposedly she should be in KL right now, but she missed her flight on 3pm! how pity on her...
she got an appointment with her doctor in KL at 5pm. and even worst, her family was waiting for her with a cake to celebrate her belated birthday... much more pitiful...

so it turned out a plan for us to go out and have fun. much important is to cheer up hajar...
then we went out celebrated her belated birthday at Secret Recipe, the four of us bought contact lense (for the first in our life!), snapping picture everywhere, n watched The Socerer's Apprentice! it was so worth it!

for aja shar, get well soon dear! n for hajar, dun be sad babe...epy belated bday! hope u'r hepy. :)


here are some picture. :)




ok thats all. very lazy to upload some more pitcha.
tomorrow's plan : go sedim,kedah waterfall! so must sleep now. hope tomorrow will be fun fun fun n fun n more fun.

pls stop it,heart

I can't lie to myself anymore.
yea I'm going to admit that.
I'm not happy.
feel like a hole in my chest.
something lost.
miserable in me.

So long haven't update this blog.

I've been feeling very lousy to write.
I've been through with so many feeling, swing away with different mood,

yet at the end of the day, always end up with a smile. :)

Talk to him every night, before fly away with dream never failed to help me sleep in peace.

although just hearing his voice through the phone...

aAaAAAAHHhHhH~~~~~
ape jiwang gile babas nih?
after so long tk tulis blog, mcm kaku tangan ni nk menaip.

dh 2 minggu utk sem 1 sidang 2010/2011 USM berlalu.
bru 2mggu kot, tapi aku rase mcm dah kt 2bulan dok usm.
sbb semuanya rase macam masih seperti dulu...
di kelilingi kawan2 yg same, hang out, lepak, sembang, ngn diorang.
tu yg rse mcm typical the past semesters I've been through..
Well, they always be the best friends for me and I know they are the one will always be there for me.. thanks kawan2ku. korg sgt cool!

alamak dh kul 8mlm! lom maghrib lg. gotta go! catch u later...

peluangku tapi mungkin bukan rezekiku

baru beberape hari yg lepas aku tulis tentang impian aku yg hampir2 tercapai... :)
tapi hari ni lain pulak ceritanya.
semalam (sabtu), aku dah hantar e-mail penarikan diri dari pergi student exchange programme tu... oohh my~?? apehal aku noob??? budu giler?? well actually thats the best decision, i geuss.

first of all ak mmg happy sgt dpt peluang utk pergi exchange. Dan yg paling wat aku rase hepy giler bile tgk family aku, abah, mama, along hepy dgr aku nak per oversea, (well mama tak bg mule2, tp abah pjuk2 die jd ok n supportive sgt! :) ) n my lubly bf, my family agkt kt jb, cik kiah n my sistaz n few frenz yg thu, sume supportive sgt n tumpang happy! ak gembira bile dpt wat org2 yg ak syg epy. thats the best feeling eva! tp wt ak mkin cuak lak ble harapan org pd kte tinggi..
okeh but now that an old story...
aku dah tarik diri. why? my fault tak tanye clearly pasal scholarship betul2. rupanya scholarship cover allowance sahaja. flight ticket sendiri. adoi~ flight ticket cost to Canada, paling murah yg ak check RM5000++. tu yg paling ngokz . 3kali tuka flight plak tu. klu return ticket? mauu belas2 riban tu beb.
aku tak nak menyusahkan ayah aku semata-semata untuk sebuah impian.
abah tak larang pergi, tapi aku yg volunteer tarik diri lepas sehari bincang ngan family n fikir betul2.

tu satu hal, tapi satu hal lagi yg lebih mustahak dari tu, its about safety.
mama risau bila tahu kl- Canada takde direct flight, tp kne transit, tuka flight 2 0r 3 (based on the type of flight). kne tuka flight kt Tokyo Japan, California Usa, n stu daerah lain kt Canada dulu before smpai Lethbridge. Perjalanan dalam 30jam semua. Kalau aku pergi, aku gerak sorg ke sana. Ibu mane yg takkan risau memikirkan anak perempuannya keliling dunia seorang diri?
Mama terus tak senang duduk bile aku cite psl perjalanan.
ini belum pergi lagi, kalau dah gerak nanti, lagilah parents aku tak tido mlm kat seminggu agaknya.

Hati memang berat nak lepaskan peluang ni, tapi hati akan lagi berat bile memikirkan hati mak ayah...
mungkin peluang suda ada, tapi ini bukan rezeki aku..
bersyukur untuk segala ketentuan. Alhamdulillah.

the time?

inikah masanya??
usm dah reply, dorg suruh get ready semua keperluan utk pergi exchange,
insurance coverage, passport dulu. pastu visa, IESL exam lak kne amek afta dpt acceptance letter.
ohh my my my my my~~
i'm a scared cat!